Hmm...

I always get this weirdly sad feeling when John goes away for a few days or even just one day on a hunting or fishing trip. I don't know how to explain it and I don't know what to call it. If you were to ask me what's wrong, I couldn't tell you...
All I know is that I don't like it. But I like that he's doing things that make him happy, so I shouldn't feel like this.



On another note (that might have something to do with the way I feel),

We've figured out at solution for the Kristy thing. I won't go in to details about the situation because that would take too long and I don't feel like going into an emotional recall of everything that has happened in the past 5 months. However, I don't feel as "happy" as I thought I'd be... it has only been like a day but I thought it was just going to get better right away. I almost feel bad to be honest. Le sigh, I guess I just need to work on my trust and have a little faith.

Unfortunately, patience is not something I'm good at.

You and I

First:

"What you feel only matters to you. It's what you do to the people you say you love, that's what matters. It's the only thing that counts."


Second:

"Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide."


I love you John. <3

Reasons to smile!

After many (failed) attempts at having a blog, I've decided to start a new one and actually use it. We shall see how that goes, haha!

Good news! I got back into Texas A&M! Received my letter on August 1st and classes start August 31st! WHOOP! :) (I don't know if I can actually do that yet or not...oops. O.0)
Also, I went to my GEST adviser today and she registered me for classes. So now all I have to do is wait until the first week of class to completley rearrange my schedule, woo! I'm can't do an 8am CHEM lab, sorry.

On another happy note: BRIANA COMES BACK IN 12 DAYS.
Possibly the most exciting thing this summer...besides the A&M news, of course! I can't wait!!
August 19th will be here soon! Then we are taking our first family trip since I had a bowl cut...and that was like 4th or 5th grade y'all. Haha.

Last but not least, John and I have been dating 10 months now. October 4th, 2008 seems like it was last week...time flew and it flew quick. We've had our ups and downs but I think we'll work them out! :)



So until I get my happy butt back on here, hope all is well with you guys!
Auf Wiedersehen! <3