Hmm...

I always get this weirdly sad feeling when John goes away for a few days or even just one day on a hunting or fishing trip. I don't know how to explain it and I don't know what to call it. If you were to ask me what's wrong, I couldn't tell you...
All I know is that I don't like it. But I like that he's doing things that make him happy, so I shouldn't feel like this.



On another note (that might have something to do with the way I feel),

We've figured out at solution for the Kristy thing. I won't go in to details about the situation because that would take too long and I don't feel like going into an emotional recall of everything that has happened in the past 5 months. However, I don't feel as "happy" as I thought I'd be... it has only been like a day but I thought it was just going to get better right away. I almost feel bad to be honest. Le sigh, I guess I just need to work on my trust and have a little faith.

Unfortunately, patience is not something I'm good at.